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automatic writing. Automatic writing or psychography is writing which the
writer states to be produced from a subconscious and/or spiritual source
without conscious awareness of the content. When we talk about automatic
writing, we are talking about channeling. We are allowing information to come
through our hand from the other side or from our own higher self. Although
there may be no way to prove whether or not automatic writing is real, you will
come to your own conclusions. I have been asked not to divulge the identity of
the person who received the messages contained in this manuscript. This person
will hereinafter be called The Channeler; the spiritual entity shall be called
The Spirit. We do not endorse nor dispute any of the information contained in
this manuscript. This is the final post
of The Color Yellow (pages 28-36). Following the messages contained in this
final post, The Spirit never returned. Will he ever return, who knows? For pages 1-28 of this manuscript click on
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MOTHER AND
CHILD
THE SPIRIT SPEAKS: Mothers
no longer shine proud for their duties as they surrender to a material world
which will never compare with instinct. The true vibrations from a mother to a
child are the strongest force in your land. Without mothers, the dimension
would never exist because when a split occurs, it can only exist as possibility
and thus could not simply exist as a determined man without variables needed to
find a perfect balance for that split. A
child, although an equal part of a whole, is like the energy after the bang
that had to cool down to settle into matter and then join to make organisms
etc. Children serve the same purpose and must go through periods of settling
down energies into a split that can exist.
They did in fact enter the world from a portal via nuclear reactions
within a sun and appeared as physical matter. Sometimes a child split simply
can’t reach the right balance or has come in with such an imbalance that it
abandons the body and returns back to the whole so it doesn’t disturb the
balance unnecessarily. These are miscarriages and still births and early-infant
deaths. The truth is that splits enter the cells of a mother’s womb the second
it is fertilized. Fertilization is two vibrations harmonizing with each other
to allow the split to enter what existed prior as a vibration in static state.
Once harmony is created then the split can enter, but two people do not always
create harmony together that will allow the energy in. These people will have
difficulty procreating until they reach an individual balance with each other.
Usually, though, you can feel harmony with another in the form of intense
physical attraction with the opposite sex.
THE ABSENT
MOTHER
Why does society feel
broken for you now? Why are women dying younger each year? Why are they ashamed
to be devoted mothers and feel inferior if they do not have a foot in the
material world--fears of your dimension? To be a mother is the most important
of jobs, but today you consider it less than a clerk’s position. Is it any
wonder that children are imbalanced and have no direction? Only a mother can
really raise a child because their harmonies are the same. They stay close
together to keep the hum at that pitch as it settles into individuality after a
few years. When the child is with strangers, the harmony short circuits and
instead of feeling like it belongs, it feels lost and starts to form defensive
postures because it doesn’t feel protected. This leads to children growing up
violent at younger ages due to this lack of a mother. The father, sadly, isn’t
all that important at this stage, or at least not any more important than any
other influence in the child’s life. Adoptive parents and a child can reach a
certain level of harmony after a while but never like a natural mother and
their child.
A child needs that “hum”
or harmonic vibration as its guide as it settles into the world of matter.
Problems of imbalance start when the mother is absent. Although you think that
women working are a giant step ahead, it is really a huge leap backwards as
mothering is, in reality, the most important duty there is. It is more
important than president, king, or pope but has been reduced through the fear
of man to nothing more than a requirement.
ABORTION
Abortion is a terrible
misunderstanding of life and the reason for your existence. It isn’t good or
bad or right or wrong: there is no such thing. However, it is the extreme
opposite of a consciousness of selflessness and that for the benefit of the
whole energy. In a sense, it is predicting the unpredictable and through an
extreme action trying to shape your future before ever taking a first small
step. It is like standing frozen in your fears for eternity in the face of the
harmonic vibration that is inside your split already and thus must be denied
vehemently by you in order to justify removing it. Those who oppose abortion
instinctually know that it works against the filtering of energy on your
dimension, and in spite of their tactics, should be listened to for insight.
The issue of abortion is an extreme state of mind in your dimension which was
created solely for the reproduction of matter and life and the continuous
harmony of the energy of the whole. When
the imbalance hits critical mass, society will begin a slow return to an
emphasis on the child and mother bond that shapes a generation in the forward
direction. However, I want to add that religion as a whole, even though it
promotes the absence of abortions, is on the whole useless in its present
forms.
A body is merely a vehicle
for you to occupy and to provide energy with a perfect stage and cast from
which to experience the dimension and move through that experience ahead toward
another higher dimension and eventually to the whole. That is the simplest of
reasons. A woman can covet hundreds of orphans and not affect the whole energy
even a fraction as much had she nurtured a single child of her own.
HOMOSEXUALITY
Homosexuality
is neither required or a giant societal problem. It has been around since the
beginning but is, in its true form, a human condition born out of energies
split solely as female for many incarnations and thus must reenter eventually
identifying as male in order to achieve balance. This transition doesn’t always
go smoothly, and the same happens with repeated male incarnations that then
incarnate as females.
If
you look closely at homosexuality, you will see that, in essence, what a split
is doing is searching for male-like energy in order to gain balance from the
other. You see this behavior even of young homosexuals who fall for male
friends or relatives in search of the balance they inherently desire. As they
grow and these advances refused by normal men, they are often forced into
searching for male ENERGY IN THEIR OWN CLOSED SOCIETY OF OTHER HOMOSEXUALS. They end up with trying to feed off of each
other to find the nonexistent supply of true male energy of the physical. This
leads to an imbalance of these societies marked by heightened instability in
general and lack of balance. There is no moral component to it, simply a lack
of balance. The only way for these
splits to find balance is from a world where these opportunities, by the very
nature of their incarnations, are not interested in them as they are moving in
their own unique direction seeking to find balance. Homosexuals move about in a
frenzied search to find that energy from new partners over and over as they
come up short in their quest.
Is
this to say that there is no balance for such splits available? The answer is
the opposite. There is always the opportunity for balance, or you wouldn’t
exist. The balance is when homosexuals are forced or choose to stop looking to
another for balance, as is true for all, and to, through experiencing your
dimension, move toward the idea of a whole consciousness and find the balance
of matter as they move ahead to that goal. Homosexuals are no more caught in
endless distractions than every other society in your dimension.
However,
there will be natural attempts to break any errant cycle of a society in order
to nudge them onto the right path. So if you can view this with an opened mind,
you can see diseases such as AIDS not as a punishment but as a push out of a
fruitless search and into a fruitful one that has the added velocity to steer
some towards the true nature expressed in compassion and forgiveness of their
fellows afflicted. This is a very simple explanation of that which is a more
multifaceted and complicated area of disease and suffering as it is interpreted
by you and as it pertains to various groups of people.
Disease
has a variety of purpose in your dimension and serves a real purpose as to
balance. Have you ever heard a person say that having a serious ailment gave
them an awakening? Or that it gave them a renewed awareness about what is
important? This is the result of balance being found by those nudged onto the
path by disease. Consequently, there are formidable barriers created over time
by society that are balanced through disease where you, as with homosexuals,
express a new-found appreciation for the compassion and nurturing that they
possess in abundance but really manifesting as a result of a disease that
pushed them in that direction. It is only through the looking glass of death as
a punishment does it take on sinister implications. To some it is time to return
to the whole, for others it is multifaceted, and still for others it is an
accelerated end to this incarnation that succumbs to obstacles that for
whatever reason have created an environment that most probably will not be
overcome currently. These are just a few of the purposes that illness
serves. For most, illness is a grand
opportunity to grow and follow a lighted path on the way to the ultimate goal
of advancing off of your plane higher into grander-still dimensions.
FAMILIES AND
MUSHROOMS
Families from past split
times tend to reenter together when they leave prior times very close--or with
unfinished issues. This isn’t a useless thing to do, as it all lends itself to
the purification of consciousness of the whole, but then they usually go apart
and pair up with unfamiliar splits to form families and thus engage with new
forms of consciousness thus, together, creating vehicles for new energy to come
through. Genetics plays a role only as it pertains to matter, and matter does
carry with it characteristics of its parent parts. Laws of nature are very real
and needed to exist so that the world could form life that instinctually moved
toward developing all forms of life on its own. These instincts are very strong
as matter must act independently--as a car, if you will--that is driven by
energy but survives via its own consciousness. Your energy certainly influences
matter, as we have discussed, but there is a natural tendency of matter to
survive any way it can. You may wonder why matter, or man, wasn’t just created
as we are now in order to not waste precious years forming from simple
organisms. This is again judged from your point of reference where you deem
yourself the ultimate goal. Everything that has ever existed in your dimension
is equally important and has served the most important of purposes from the
very beginning. You had to experience the most basic of moments after this
dimension was created in order to even know how to experience matter. Every
cell in your body is brilliant and knows everything in the universe. Each tiny
bug also is a genius by your standards. If you look around you, there is a
massive symphony of perfection operating to keep this dimension running in
order for your split energy to exist and function and learn for the benefit of
every single atom in the universe and beyond.
Reality is that you are no smarter and no greater than a common
mushroom. It grows and reproduces just as you do. It knows which environments
are friendly, develops defenses to survive and has many different splits of its
own. A mushroom is a fantastic mathematic wonder on every level, and if you
could unlock its secrets today, you would know wonders greater than any of
man’s inventions to date.
But still, we do have
instinct for survival, and you have fought to label and change these instincts
to suit what is only an attempt to avoid the raising of your vibration. Have
you ever felt a nagging memory that you couldn’t just put a finger on? A
feeling from long ago without face of body but pure feeling of thought? These
are moments of remembering that try to come through, but many times you resist
them and call them unwanted conditions and subdue them with medicine. You have convinced yourselves that you should
never feel uneasy or anxious, and if you do, then you are defective. The
dimension is all here for you to experience the parts of the whole and to
freely move toward the next levels. You
must always know that this dimension is about knowing perspective. It is to
know that you are by knowing a here and there. You know happy from sad and
bravery from fear. You know hate from love and joy from grief. When you
eliminate any one of these things, then the other you will not know. A person
who is prevented from expressing hate will not ever accept love or express it.
Wearing a chemical smile will always be no more than a mask. Feeling is not a
defect.
THE STUBBORN
TWINS
So you and your twin
energy want to know about your family that has come here with you and returned
back in this life. I will visit this briefly as there is much that you are not
able to understand. Your grandmother was a soul who was, by comparison, an
advanced energy who had found the true direction in this life and found herself
quickly moved forward to a place that was difficult for her to exist in. For
her, this was because she had given up a significant part of her own energy to
bring you and the twin into this world with your refusal to split. The only way
for you to stay here and exist with this imbalance, created by the refusal to fully
split, was for her, as a mother no less, to give her energy to you to balance
you out as she knew that you would be here to be a conduit in your future. Now, by making this sacrifice, she launched
herself ahead in a world that wasn’t hospitable to this balance, brought on so
quickly by such a bold sacrifice, and she weakened from that point on until her
body gave out. You see the sudden influx of energy and vibration rise in the
period of stigmata she experienced toward the end of her life. She was originally
the one who agreed to be the receiver of this information, but the time wasn’t
right for it then and so it passed to you. She was really too balanced for this
task and instinctually knew that she could not do it.
Your grandmother had not
had other incarnations with you as family before this one. In fact, she had
been a leper prior to this life and had died what was a critical death. In that
life she had volunteered to take care of a sick colony of people and became
sick herself. This energy, as intense as it was, followed her into this life
where the imbalance it originally brought with it was quickly balanced enough
to allow her to assimilate, but she could never let go of the need to take on
the burden of many others and physically she died young.
Why were you so close to
her??? Because of the aforementioned maternal harmonic vibrations that remained
so fine-tuned from her to your mother, who is actually more a twin to you, and
thus you both shared that same need to continue to feel that harmony until her
death. In many ways, it infused what is, and has been for many reasons, an
imbalanced system with balance in order for survival. After she died, you will
remember that your twin energies veered off uncharacteristically in many odd
directions due to the sudden lack of this harmony which was not replaceable
from mother to son, as it usually is, because you are not so much mother and
son as stubborn twins. In fact, you are the only two in the family with a
history of past incarnations, all past incarnations, amongst a group who do
share a past history with the exception of the two of you. Your grandmother was
a volunteer to bring you into this dimension as an unbalanced conduit due to
her heightened energy, which naturally led to other children, but her main
purpose was to balance out the imbalance required to receive sudden influx of
balanced energy. The rest of your family has a varied and long history that
doesn’t really include you, and I therefore will not relate the reasons for
their early passing and experience as they have virtually nothing to do with
you two. That is all I am going to relate on this topic of past incarnations
for now.
OUR UNIQUE
AND TEMPORARY WORLD
As I have told you, your
dimension is unique and has developed in ways that were possible and at the
same time unexpected. It is the wonder of your world put forth as the ultimate
filter of what was only known when it finally was. However, it is temporary and
will one day be replaced by another whose existence will be unique in its own
and the reality of which will only be known when you experience it. Mothers,
fathers, children, rocks, and wealth only exist here in your dimension.
Language and emotions will be gone forever as well. You only understand your
world because you are experiencing it at the present. When you leave the
material body, you don’t wake up in another dimension as the person you are now
but as an energy who has occupied many forms. You don’t even wake up at the
same split of energy, but the entirety of energy with possible consciousness
that will be split differently in times ahead. You are not an individual but
the whole. When you help a despised man, you are helping yourself. When you
save a tiny beetle, you are saving yourself. If you want to be the greatest you
can be, then you give up everything you have for the benefit of everything else
without fear of such separation. But the world of matter only allows you to
experience and learn via matter interaction through actions.
THE
ACCOUNTING
When this incarnation ends
for you, and you sit in review before reentering the whole, you will see your
life from pure perspective and many will be shocked when confronted with their
choices that will seem so obvious to you. Property, wealth, beauty and such
qualities of a material world will be realized as worthless insomuch as they
exist, and the real value will be seen in how your reactions shaped your path
toward the whole. A wealthy man will feel that he no more than sat in fear in a
thickly-walled cave guarding a pile of rocks from his fellow. Had he given these rocks freely back to Earth
for its completeness and the experience of all other energies, he would have,
in that moment of review, experienced riches beyond what is imaginable in your
dimension.
(February
27, 2009 – 10 days following death of my Yuki who I had to have put down due to
advanced cancer. Yuki appeared to my friend, Tammy, while I was sleeping on the
sofa in my living room. Tammy assumed it was my other dog, Yahtsi (Yuki’s niece),
who was at my mother’s house. I had been
very depressed since Yuki’s passing. I had stayed with Yuki and held her as she
took her last breath looking up to me.)
YUKI
Was it wisdom or simply rain that day
when your little one came back to you?
You never doubted that it happened, as you found yourself perfectly and
beautifully balanced at that moment. It is the only way to see that place—to be
there, vibrations exact and born out of a real moment when all selfish things
are truly gone. In the still of the night you could feel it--what it means to
step aside in lieu of another that you so deeply loved. Humans rarely reach for those times, having
long ago forgotten them possible, but when it happens, your whole being is shocked
into and out of a place that you lived permanently in other lives. You felt
sore and tired and beautifully and perfectly sad for a loss that you suffer so
she didn’t.
How does a person get to the place where
everything is balanced and time has no place and the mind sees everything
forever? Why do so few get there? It’s
because--as you have rediscovered—it’s hard. It is the hardest thing for a
human to do, but it is exactly why you are here. You must walk through every
fear and every unknown—through self images and lack of respect. You must feel
every high and every low and know them for their futility and for their glory,
but you and only you must know them, and it isn’t found or confronted through
talk or in numbers--but only in the moments when no one is looking at you.
You still cry for her, your little
beautiful girl—the loss ripped out the place where love lives for you, and now
you walk around in grief almost always because it’s the only thing holding back
the tears. You can pretend to everyone else, but it’s there. You hurt inside because
you’re empty, and only when she came to you did it ever feel okay. You long for
that moment like a drug because in your helping her to cross you found
perfection, and then it escaped, and you hurt.
She was a soul who knew you a long
time—a guardian come down to spare your life and see you to this place. They
all were. You were not here to protect them but the opposite—they were here to
watch over you. They are angels, your angels, manifested here to protect in a
form they struggle to keep as this is not where they are made to reside. They
sicken quickly for that reason and go quickly. The Shar-Pei are special ones.
Not really dogs at all but incarnations of deities all marked by the purple
tongues throughout your history. The
final two are here simply to be a connection to the others to use if needed but
are very young entities in their first few incarnations before the human
stages.
Would it surprise you to know that she
went against all balance when she came back as she was deep into grief like you,
only even more unfamiliar with human emotions like you know them. She was a
very different sort, as you knew, because she had never been on your plane
before this time. But when she passed, she felt it sharply and with what you
might call worry she went back and stayed with you and sat with you when you
slept, and you could smell her in the room and once heard her crying also. She still is sad even over here, sad to be
gone and sad in your grief. This wasn’t
expected as usually
this sort of crossover doesn’t occur readily.
The End
