THE COLOR
YELLOW
(An amazing
case of automatic writing.)
This post contains information received through the technique of
automatic writing. Automatic writing or psychography is writing which the
writer states to be produced from a subconscious and/or spiritual source
without conscious awareness of the content. When we talk about automatic
writing, we are talking about channeling. We are allowing information to come
through our hand from the other side or from our own higher self. Although
there may be no way to prove whether or not automatic writing is real, you will
come to your own conclusions. I have been asked not to divulge the identity of
the person who received the messages contained in this manuscript. This person
will hereinafter be called The Channeler; the spiritual entity shall be called
The Spirit. We do not endorse nor dispute any of the information contained in
this manuscript.
Introduction
by The Channeler
I
can only tell you what I know about my amazing experiences with automatic
writing which began in the spring of 2007.
I was an aspiring writer who lived alone with my two dogs in a small
town New England. I lived a quiet life, having spent the prior five years
writing two different books and exploring the possibilities of getting them
published. It is my nature to work obsessively on whatever project I embark upon.
I wrote constantly. I rewrote, edited and then wrote some more. I have never considered myself overly
spiritual or psychic in any great way and am not, or ever have been, into new-age
writing and do not have highly-evolved friends in my life. Most of my years on this planet have been spent building
a foundation of bad judgments and questionable decisions in my life. Seven
years ago I finally got sober for the last time and went about the difficult
task of living life without booze and drugs.
I am not a churchgoer, do not attend AA meetings and do not, to my
knowledge, have an intimate relationship with any higher power or a
consciousness that has ever been anything to brag about. So no one is more
shocked and skeptical than I am about what happened that early morning in March
of 2007.
I
was sitting on my sofa watching a mindless DVD right before 3 a.m. and didn’t
feel anything unusual. One of my dogs lay sprawled out on the floor snoring
loudly as she does every night. There was no heightened awareness or prowling
premonition of any grand event unfolding. I didn’t feel anything except the
urge to open up the word processing program on my new Dell laptop computer as
was customary numerous times every day when plagued by boredom or a sudden
onslaught of feeling to write something down. I felt no more inspired than on
any previous occasion when I would clear my mind and start hitting the keys
with my fingers.
Except
that morning something was, in fact, different. It is difficult to explain. I
wasn’t in any type of trance or altered state of mind and can remember it
clearly. This particular time I was
focused on typing out words -- just words spelled out with a thoughtless
concentration--without consideration to what the words might have meant. After
about an hour I went blank, back to where I had started when I had cleared my
mind and begun to type. Except, as I looked down and began to read the words on
the page, the incongruity of what I was reading was undeniable. Something
fascinating had made its way onto the page.
It
wouldn’t be until some days later that I would learn, via numerous repetitions
of these episodes, what was happening. The facts were indisputable and shook my
pride, my self-confidence and my beliefs to their core. What was printed on the
paper was a tale of sorts about the nature of our world. Believe me when I tell
you that this was not a welcome event for me. I struggled with a real fear that
I might be losing my grip on reality and tried to explain it as some
sleep-deprived ranting and an over-imaginative mind. It has taken five years to
overcome my reluctance to claim any part of this phenomenon, and I continue to
have feelings of foolishness as I write this. But I cannot continue to pretend
it never happened; as hard as I have tried to fight it off, it just won’t go
away.
I
can’t tell you exactly what it is all about except to say that there is real
information that came through me at different times. It is its own voice, and I
am the stenographer of sorts. The entity has never identified itself or
represented itself as some past warrior spirit returning to save the world.
However, there is a reference to some sort of cosmic fellowship between us --
as teachers and “brothers to countless souls” -- a connection I am, by the way,
totally clueless about. Ultimately, it is for you to read, interpret, evaluate
and decide for yourself what the words in this book mean.
So,
am I crazy? I don’t believe so, but in the end it is not for me to decide the
validity of it all for you. I don’t even understand a lot of what the entity
endeavors to explain myself. I have been told that the text will exist “on its own”
and I am only to relay the contents without judgment. I didn’t write this book,
at least not consciously. These are not my opinions, and I have no great desire
to claim some of them anyway. I am well
aware how politically incorrect some of these pronouncements will be viewed by
many in today’s world, including me. But, like a person knocking on your door
until you relent and open it, so too have I been hearing this knocking now
since those early-morning hours all those months ago. Eventually, you give in
and open the door. I seem to be given a break currently, and for now the
knocking and the words have stopped. Maybe it is for good, or maybe not, but
for now all is silent. Read on and decide for yourself.
SPIRIT:
Hello there. It has been a long time since we have seen one another. You are
well. And so am I. Much is going on in
this world—the seen and unseen coexist as a unified energy from which
everything is created. You may see it as time and events contrasted to the unknowable;
however, it is all the same on your side and ON MINE.
THE
AFTERWORLD
YOU
WANT TO ASK QUESTIONS OF ME about the afterworld as if it is separate, and I
say it is not. What you think is realized instantaneously as your view of time
and future is not real in the sense that you try and understand it. Life has
always been alive and always will be. You have no end, and death is but the end
of a dream in its finality. You and I travel a circle of atoning that never ceases,
and we jump on and off of the Ferris wheel periodically into worlds, flesh, and
other places of learning and existence and do it all at once without the
burdens of your comprehension which divides using time and location. As you sit
there typing, you also sit beyond in many worlds and advance by many MEANS. YOU
TEACH AS I DO--A BROTHER TO COUNTLESS souls in many lands. To say that the goal
is to grow to God is not real as it indicates that you are different or separated
from him. We are all Him. Everything is the known. You understand everything
inside but agree to leave it all for a time as a way of digesting and reabsorbing
it all more deeply. We do this to keep the flow as we are all a part of a whole
that can’t be without every part. We don’t choose, we just move. It all started
with the knowledge that we were, and when we knew we were, we knew that we
could be, and to be meant existing, and then we knew there from here.
THE ENDLESS NOW
Think
for a moment of this moment--it is gone but still it is now. There is no past
or future as you think. It is always now and always will be. Life, as it is
defined, is an endless stream of thought that is unending marked only by
attempts at stopping its flow with false landmarks we call memories. But it is
only right now and always will be. You are the greatest of men and the most
despicable of them all in one mind expressing it as individuals but reacting TO
EACH OTHER. A HITLER DOESN’T EXIST ALONE NOR DOES A SAINT. HE IS A RESULT OF
THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF HIS PARTS, AND SO ARE YOU. YOU ARE ALL CAPABLE OF
EVERYTHING THAT HAS EVER BEEN DONE OR CONTEMPLATED--ABLE TO BE BENT ONE WAY
So
your questions, in reality, are not real and you want verification of time and
space that doesn’t really exist, but of course I understand THE LEVEL FROM
WHICH THESE QUESTIONS ARE ASKED, AND SO TO MY BEST ABILITY I WILL TRY AND
SATISFY YOUR MIND.
THE BIG BANG
The
Earth came into being in your time many years ago with the movement of mind
from one place to another in perspective giving reference of existing. That is
when the whole knew to look, but it was always there and never there at the
same time. Yes, it is an illusion but has a series of points from which perspective
has been cast and so for this time I will explain.
Earth
is a gateway for the whole to split apart like the holes of a sieve to gain
energy and rejoin in a second together to move around until we split again. The
night sky is only a faint view of splits and these consciousness gates from
where we have been and not yet going. Like a giant game of cards, we play our
hands to reach the furthest lights. Some so far away we don’t see them until
death, and others only need to remain for other lives to gain the correct
momentum. It is a large trial and error so massive and full of choice that we
gamble every moment of our time here and negotiate the reason for being. To
know the truth would cause a giant push of all minds to the far reaches in an
instant leaving this world nonexistent as we know it. What you call “the bang”
was the reverse of a complete mind suddenly split through the sieve into
separation starting with every quark and proton huddling with familiarity to form
atoms and then cells, elements, gasses, and in memories bonding in ways we knew
inherently to create a whole. We have only scratched a surface here and to this
day have only the most elemental of success in bringing our memories into this
plane.
PLANET EARTH
So
the question that is asked is about the state of the planet in your dimension
or more accurately the vibration of thought on the plane of which you ask. The
only part of what you understand that is correct is that it goes through
changes and will continue to do so. The Earth is simply a manifestation of your
collective thoughts in a moment, and it is the consciousness of the whole that
governs the changes. To ask this question on this most basic of levels is
difficult to answer as the question barely touches the real. I’ll explain.
The
Earth is a perfect balance of all its parts right down to the individual sands
that provides an arena for life to exist and coexist. Picture an endless line
of overlapping circles that continues in an endless spiral. These are the
infinite stages of the moment where you exist with any and all possible moments
acting as one. Your questions are asked from a microcosm, one part of an
infinite number of stages, so you ask me about one possible stage of the Earth and
to ask about any other state of the plane is equally valid. Any answer I give
you is correct and to wonder if your life will end with the Earth wrongly
assumes that an end or a beginning actually exists. Every thought is eternal
and history; your history which you deem so important, is only real for you at
this moment only in memory that you find necessary to give yourself landmarks
to make sense of life. Your physical actions will not destroy the planet. It
couldn’t affect it on this level anyway. You would only as a collective shape
an environment for your reality to reflect the state of the consciousness. If
the parts are in distress, then the Earth will reflect that as well. Harmony of
the parts is harmony of the whole. The Earth can reset itself and therefore
reset mankind with it. To worry about such a thing is to ask from the most
unreal levels. Ask how each one of you is playing a part in the consciousness
and what is there you are up against and can’t traverse. Movement ahead is the
motion, and the people of your world are slowing down now--surrendering to a
complicated part of the mind as if to satisfy a need for adventure. We see
ourselves in our other worlds in dreams, but we label them not real. They are
but a few of endless moments all taking place now as there is no other state
but now. To move ahead in harmony is to continue smooth momentum until the time
for you as a part leaves to rejoin the whole around the cycle until you return.
Mankind,
as you know it, is strapped in the material world and holds on to that which
can be held and coveted for personal gain. When society is of this mind, that
which is coveted is of the material and thus depletes your dimension of the
physical in order for you to feel more secure. As your mind and body grab hold
and suffer, so does the planet. To think that to fix this problem will come
from words and small actions by people already satiated with comforts is false,
as in order to uplift the condition of Earth, you must uplift the condition of
the whole consciousness first. Man will always be looking over his shoulder to
catch another taking what he has given up. Is this real consciousness being uplifted?
No it is not, for action forced by fear will never truly make any changes. Fear
drives reality underground to exist in a protected place justified by man.
There it is left to foster itself and grow unabated until, as today, you are
struggling with the basic decision of living or dying. Is it worth easing the
grasp in order to have continued life in your plane? Do you really believe in
the spirit when terror governs a visit there? Has man been reduced to a place
of really not having any connection to his identity, living blind in a futile existence?
The answer is yes he has. The entire planet is anchored in survival and not
movement. If you knew how much a selfless act would catapult you, then there
would be no debate. That is a basis for why you exist there. It is not for the
specific advancement of the individual, not at all, there is no such thing. It
is for the advancement of the whole strengthened by its parts—as a tune-up for
your transport. That is why you cycle through the Earth over and over again to
purge the attachments to self and to refine the care of the whole. This may be
the most difficult understanding there is: that who you are and who your
friends are is only a theater. There is no differentiation in my world between
you and me. You wonder who I am, or if it is you talking to yourself? The
answer is yes to both.
TALES OF
NEAR-DEATH
Your
first days on Earth are spent in stages. One such stage is the incarnation as
organic energy that flows through the plants and animals and then to the
advanced organisms and eventually into whole Earth energy. From organic lives
we are learning the basic “math” associated with living so that we can keep our
bodies living in later incarnations. That is why, and yes, subconsciously you
are keeping your body alive; mental health, stress, sadness, joy, faith all
affects your body. Your mental state and the connection to the knowledge of the
basic body/energy relationship are more powerful the closer you feel to your
true spirit energy. This is why prayer is so effective for those who experience
strong connections to the life before this current split onto Earth’s plane.
Those who are hopeless drift further away until the body shuts down and stops.
Sometimes all that is needed is a moment of physical death and rapid traversing
of the cycle back to the whole--and then slit immediately back into the body--to
awake a man with a newfound memory of his true nature. His attitudes are
changed, thus affecting the body and mind. The stories of near-death tales
reflect this moment as the soul is sucked back into the whole energy at the end
of the individual tunnel split off via stars to rejoin. They see themselves as
they are, and the familiar faces of loved ones, but know that it is all one
existence. They feel love and joy in such intensity that it hurls them back, and
they relive renewed. They are always given a choice at the moment of death
whether or not to return or to continue on. However, in many cases, to leave
the joy and the memory at that moment when suddenly free from a sick body, or
the end of an old life, is simply too painful, and thus we say goodbye and move
on. Usually the old and frail do not choose to return from death but the young
do as they are leaving behind those that entered the split with them. If
studies were recorded, you would find that the first of a family to pass is
likely to continue to keep his finger in this world via visions and messages
aimed at having it both ways. This is usually brief, and what you refer to as a
haunting is very rare on the whole.
REINCARNATION
You
ask me about reincarnation. I hope that I do not disappoint you when I say that
this is perceived with false importance. Who you were or may have been before
is simply a temporary vehicle for you to ride while learning the same lessons
and identity. The point is not to advance individually but to transcend
individuality for community or wholeness. To tell you that in this very moment you have
and are living endless moments would only confuse you as you are stuck in the
idea of individuality. You are merely one working ant in a giant hill being
watched from a distance where the watcher only sees the hill. Biology and
genetics, as it relates to behavior, is only the necessary symbiosis for this
vehicle that is more accurately referred to as a dimension. Whether or not a birth becomes extinct is
only relevant to the continuation of the vibrations of the dimension, and
balance is found at any rate. If a meteor strikes the Earth, it is simply to
balance the energy that has degraded to the point that it needs to readjust. As
with dinosaurs: it was no accident but only that for man to advance into a
different form and leave the primitive existence where you learned the science,
if you will, of life, the planet had to, how do you say, switch gears, and for
that to happen, the energy had to be reshuffled. Therefore, the planet was
struck. It is why there are large dramatic events in between the phases of your
planet as you dig to find what you left behind. To study the past is probably
the greatest deterrent to you and the whole energy. Why spend a lifetime
digging up what you already know to be true.
Let
me give a practical example on the reverse of the discussion. The land of Tibet
Then
you wonder why children suffer so as they are so innocent. This is false in its
premise as a child is no more innocent than the seasoned murderer. The child, as
well as the most despised, carry the same consciousness with them but exist at
different moments of split as you would insist on defining them. There are many
reasons why a child dies, and it is usually at the hands of family or illness.
Family members are sometimes splits refusing to separate again after a quick
return from a previous problematic death due to an unhealthy support structure
in a previous life. Either a child or parent dies to balance this out. It
appears unfair but is not. It is necessary. Whether the adult dies or the child
dies depends on which one volunteers to go in the grand scheme to maintain
balance—but this is not made by the individual but by the whole energy. Those
with less severe separation dilemmas can remain and seek understanding by
passing through the need to identify separations as real thus resisting the
existence and reality that nothing is separate.
KARMA
Karma
is misunderstood since we all actually have the exact same karma but experience
it at different levels of progress and order. Today you may work through faith
and another love and in a thousand years possibly the reverse will be true, but
these so called karmic lives are best described more like a filter on a water
pump to remove the blocks from the energy and thus purify it for the ultimate
goal of keeping consciousness and what is real humming along as a perfect
machine.
Why
does it need to work like this? What is the real consciousness? Words are a
poor way to describe this to the one listening as I can’t actually fit it into
your box of comprehension although you already know it all. What splitting does
is allow the whole to operate above the separate energies of Earth. Look at the
lives around you. This is the result of separation. You don’t forget anything
really—your power supply is running on backup and only has so much to utilize
for the vast reservoirs you own. Separation runs what it can and is why the Hindus
focus on lifting energy in the body to “up” the power in the soul--thus turning
on other areas that lack the energy they have when they are existing together
with the whole and have access to infinite energy.
BLACK HOLES
Larger
objects have more energy, and here we stumble into your science which, in part,
has observed details with some accuracy. The planet is larger than you and
therefore operates alone with a mind for balance—whole balance. Jupiter, for
example, runs at a higher consciousness to a level where it exists not as a
solid but as an airy gas mass one frequency higher than Earth. It is a portal
for energies coming back into our system, or more accurately, as a sort of
sling shot into our arena. As size and mass increase, so does energy, until you
have what is known as black holes full of so much energy that virtually
vanishes to our limited sight. Now these holes are actual gates of entry, but a
split separates at a high frequency that requires many slingshots to settle
down as matter. The bang was that way in the beginning, full of so much energy
that the whole needed time to settle down and expand, thus distribute its energy
into billions of systems until matter formed — cooled off if you will. Now what
about the belief that microscopic matter has a mind, a consciousness? Well, it
certainly does, but it is more of a robotic mind that does not actually
continue to lose its energy. It vibrates at a much higher level individually
that the whole body it makes up. Meaning that its energy is dispersed and weakened
as the whole but remains high individually where it dies and replicates constantly
to “refresh” itself as you do when you die, recharge, and return. But in the
beginning so much had to split through such a small portal that the density
didn’t allow for dispersing all at one time, but a more gradual event that
overwhelmed the space it created to such an extent that exit black holes were
created to balance the pressure of energy like a series of pressure valves and
relief valves all for the sake of a balance to keep a perfect balance of
consciousness. This happens on every level right down to the planet and our
bodies that will adapt in the form of earthquakes, magnetic movements, disease,
death, etc.
ATLANTIS AND
THE POLAR SHIFT
You
want to know about the past of the plane you live on. I am reluctant to focus
on this information as I do not want to encourage this mindset for you of
focusing on the past. But I will briefly illustrate your questions for you to
satiate curiosity.
Firstly,
Atlantis was never called Atlantis. That is part of the myth you paint of a
glorious Eden
Atlantis
was ultimately the result of a magnetic shift of the Earth that took place in a
short time but was possible for many years. Prior times of Earth were marked by
civilizations that had deteriorated much further than today, and the balance
was rendering it uninhabitable for its purpose. It wasn’t that these times were
bad or evil, there is no such thing, but simply irrelevant for its purpose. It
came to a point where people only lived for short times due to this imbalance.
From birth, the energy of the soul was depleted by society and thus was spent
while, by your standards, it was still in youth. Fossil remains of prior men,
mummies, etc., are always very young deaths by your standards. This was a
domino effect as fear of death was concentrated in intensity into such a short
time that it raised this fear exponentially and created a population that
almost never did anything but die, still unfiltered, thus weakening the whole.
This was immediately balanced by the whole consciousness when it hit critical
mass--when instead of eliminating man and life, which would result in a giant
energy imbalance of the entire universe with a mass exit and disrupt other
dimensions--and after subtle corrections failed, the magnetic field was
flipped. This could be compared to shaking up a bottle of oil and water to let
it resettle within the bottle and not splashing all over everything else in a
way in which it might never re organize together. When the poles shifted, it
broke the stalemate of minds, and the knowledge of origin burst through into
man’s mind and some were able to survive it and others simply panicked and left
the plane in death. Those left, including animals and plant life, started again
from a reset consciousness and again started on a path that allowed them to
shed the fears and move ahead.
BALANCE
RESTORED
These
souls remaining congregated in several capitols including Iraq or Babylon,
Egypt, and a part of Mexico that at that time existed in a much larger Mexico
and several smaller groupings. They
existed undisturbed on the right path of forward movement for years and
progressed as areas conducive to their purpose for thousands of years as the Earth
once again created and gelled into a complete balance that had properly been
shaken and settled into a balanced state.
THE WILD,
WILD EARTH
Then
many thousands of years ago something unexpected happened that once again led
to a complete destruction, almost complete, of the Earth’s life. In a dimension
close to our own in vibration energy, there exists a realm occupied by a higher
level of split energy who are working to advance the whole in a dimension that
does not require the burden of the heavy physical matter we experience. They
are those who have been here many times before and moved on to the next, or
another, level of filtering or learning. However, energy likes your Earth for
its extremes and its intensity and its “wild” spiral that blasts in and is made
up of first-time energy left to find its way blindly if you will. Other levels
don’t require such a purge of energy and therefore allows a much greater access
of its entities to their true nature of the whole. This is to say that Earth is
a more-untamed arena where balance is more difficult and behavior allowed first
before corrections occur. Try thinking about a spiral storm or hurricane that
grows unchallenged until it hits land and is tamed by the consciousness of the
aforementioned interior consciousness where it cannot exist. This is why hurricanes
hit areas of high crime and dysfunctional populations more often than others
and weaken up your coast as these levels decrease. Religion is much more
important in interior populations who are not better energies, only less-tempted
ones.
So,
the energies on this other dimension came very close to our own until its
spiral path overlapped our own and they were momentarily pulled by their past
to rejoin the Earth dimension. This wasn’t as easy as just appearing here as
they were not of flesh as you know it but of a higher state as say Jupiter
exists. Not solid but not that far from it either. Being that they were of a
higher vibration, lowering that energy so as to grab onto our world was not a
difficult thing to do. We would have a much more difficult time grabbing onto
theirs as raising our energy is the reason we are here in the first place, and
if we had achieved this state, would have already moved on. But a very small
group from this higher dimension, when overlapped with our own, purged their
energy and switched over to ours where they voluntarily became caught on Earth
in the area of Egypt
THE PYRAMIDS
So
the group of entities was stuck on Earth for lack of ability to return to their
origin and so they, having shed awareness, were in a position to try and
recreate their dimension out of the one they were on in Egypt. This is where
the whole pyramid phase began as information given by these entities to create
their own portal to move back and forth between dimensions. This is another
reason for its size as I related prior. When one examines the pyramids design,
the use as a tomb is an afterthought, actually, and the antechamber was
originally lined in gold as it helped them jump back and forth to recharge.
They in effect became power hungry and enslaved the Egyptians with fear,
keeping the entire country occupied in mass pyramid projects--keeping them
occupied on physical tasks. They reasoned that they would eventually create a
portal to move back and forth freely between dimensions but never achieved
this.
There is a straight line
shaft that points toward the optimal overlap point in the sky from each pyramid
where these crossovers would
happen. But as the years passed, the ability for the visitors to go back and
forth was hampered. As they lost any remains of a higher
consciousness, so too did they lose any real ability to hold onto what was
known as extra power that had originally helped them. Eventually, the visitors
moved on from Egypt where they colonized people in Mexico and tried to recreate
the same general civilization there but with much less success as their
strength was greatly weakened to the point that they reverted to violence to
control the people. They did still have the ability to access some energy from
other dimensions via the pyramid portals that they built and retained the
ability to bleed this energy out over the populations which weakly gave them
some control over the new people, but not enough to sustain their loyalty, and
because it was not reinforced by forward movement of the energies, it was
temporary without any lasting effects due to lack of anything real to feed off
of.
This colony, in what was
then eastern Mexico Atlantic Ocean , is what you
refer to as Atlantis. As far as advancement of a consciousness, Atlantis was
not very advanced and started off on a material footing born out of leaders who
had abilities that the people associated with power and that were far above
what the unsophisticated people knew. To them these were again godlike figures
who seemed to be able to live endless lives and had the ability to do extra-sensational
things like levitate objects by bleeding energy into them and to appear
transparent or ghostlike by doing the same thing. In Egypt Mexico
The rulers, in a vain
attempt to continue their rule, started hiding the tombs of pharaohs in the
valley of their kings, not out of respect and protection, but so the people
would not continue to uncover the tombs of the kings and realize AGAIN THAT THE
LONG-HELD BELIEFS THAT THEY HAD BEEN FED WERE NOT TRUE.
As their new colony weakened,
the visitors realized that their weakness would be challenged by the Indians
due to a balance that was happening.
A ROGUE PAIR
I want to mention here one
fact that should be known as you discuss these writings with the person that you
call mother in your plane. The two of you are an example of a split in energy
that will not fully split. It is not a part of a larger group that refuses to
split, but in fact a rogue pair that has done this over and over and accepts a
more difficult existence in order to pool your energies in an attempt to exist
on a heightened plain of consciousness but with that accepts a very dynamic and
chaotic life marked by great highs and great lows. The positive is that the
combination allows you to tackle situations as combined and yet stronger energy
thus allowing you a heightened experience which in times of social collapse and
low energy of minds has been nothing but a hindrance, but in times of relative
forward movement it can be good if you keep the forward momentum and do not
turn away from it in the middle. However, the two of you never interact deeply
with other people and act as superior in what you think of as trivial. Your
pair fosters insecurity on one level but has created an accepted system of immediate
balance acting as independent energy as you advance. This means that your
symbiosis allows you on the one hand to avoid stagnant connections to a group
in order to advance as you have created a two-split system that is independent
and subconsciously prevent the other from any real attachment with anyone else
and thus are lacking in some experiences that are necessary. The balance
appears as a higher-minded jester of sorts--strange in their ways but aware
more than others. But you should be mindful of the intense sabotage you have
for any other energies who try and approach the other’s arena. You have been
doing this for ages and would have been stopped were it not for special
circumstances that will be clear later that you have agreed toexchange for this
continued dependency.
WAR
Welcome back. You want to
know about war. You want to think that there is a deep reason for it to justify
death and suffering. This is a false parameter from which to look at it as the
reasons fall back into the original explanations I have given regarding the
whole of the mind and the struggle to balance in your Earth dimension. Wars
take place when the consciousness, programmed to achieve balance, drift
critically away from the desired path of unity awareness and of identifying as
the whole and not just individual splits. The more the splits drift toward the
coveting of the material plane, the further away they are from achieving the
whole consciousness by the desired thought. This does not, however, remove the
inherent need to balance but only leaves them with the physical plane from
which to accomplish this. So when the balance of the whole is tilted, the
stronger of these energies will act in order to retain balance, or at its most
confusing, try to preempt a possible imbalance by striking at other groups thus
thinking that they are staving off a tilt but really adding to the perceived imbalance
that is, in actuality, fear. You see this in your current time with the wars
and conflicts waged in the East. There are not inherent past energy conflicts
with these other groups and your society, but a grand mutation of what is referred
to as religion on both sides. Imagine the precious tale of the dimension travelers
in Egypt
A religious belief cannot
be realized when the original goals have been lost, and therefore the groups
within it only operate out of fear and not the desire for balance.
Historically, those setting out on the path of unity have been attacked due to the
fears of those of other religions motivated by the knowledge that theirs is on
shaky ground and that its strength then must be at the hands of force and not
beliefs. Man knows inherently that his religion, for the most part when
accepted entirely upon modern interpretations, is a weak force at best held
together by the weakest of bonds that require protection by what you call war.
One needs only to look at Iraq
So why is this allowed?
There isn’t such a thing as allowing or preventing. The reason for being on
this dimension is to strengthen the energies to transcend these problematic
impurities caused when the energies incarnated into a physical plane that
required materialization in a dimension of matter governed by laws. This isn’t
the only dimension that requires a unique form of energy, only one of many that
exist simultaneously, and if these imperfections, as I call them, are not
filtered out of the whole before moving ahead, then they risk sudden overlaps
and “jumps” between dimensions that can serve only to interject energies
powerful enough to disrupt this dimension on a level that causes a greater
imbalance as we saw with Egypt and thus leading to the destruction of Atlantis
over thousands of years because the natural order is to advance to higher
levels of consciousness through realization. When a higher level appears as
matter, however, the people will go to it as a magnet in order to take a “short
cut,” if you will, and these energies can lead masses of split energies just by
their vibrations. This has had great and catastrophic results as in the icons
of your religious pasts and, consequently, by power-drunk men--war also.
Let me say that this
doesn’t mean that all of these energies appeared suddenly to jump as most were actually
incarnated in the standard way of birth but were still drawn here unnaturally
by a rare but possible closeness in various levels of advance and overlap. This
wasn’t true in the early stages of this dimension as entities did arrive here
other ways as they fought to find vibratory systems friendly to their own and
order was much less established. From these early stages and into experimental
attempts by splits to find a path we created the tales of Satan and God where Satan
only represented a way to illustrate these energies that influenced others by their
mere presence and attempted to hijack this dimension for themselves against
lesser splits who achieved an initial balance between their own energy and that
of this dimension. The more advanced energies had to find their own place, but
this being the first vibration that gelled in this dimension, it was a sort of
stop-off for all, and the struggle for balance began almost immediately. You
can still see this battle today against fundamental groups trying to instill
their system onto others and the vehement disdain in creates in war against a
people or leaders whose strength is abnormally powerful.
JESUS AND
BUDDHA, ETC.
Now take your characters
like Jesus, Buddha, etc. These are in fact higher energies that came here to
influence the unity of the planet in order to create balance. We believe that
they were sent by God himself, and they were insofar as anything that occurs is
part of a whole, but to narrowly categorize it this way is to vastly limit the
truth. Jesus came from a higher dimension but was left with only partial
realization of the former self until his overwhelming suffering created an
imbalance necessary to withstand the influx of higher awareness and vibration
to continue to exist here. That is how it usually is with an entity that comes
here having agreed to be a conduit to relay influence from their higher level.
To take a healthy split and infuse it with such powerful energy out of nowhere
would annihilate its form in this dimension and send it back to the whole. Even
those who undergo the stresses of extreme imbalance in life before being such a
conduit are not always able to survive such influx. You, for example, spent
years struggling to create such an extreme imbalance in your energy that to now
receive these writings affects you very little with the exception of discomfort
around the believing. You have
effectively created an arena whereas you are pulled into other energies very
weakly if at all, whereas others are pulled immediately into higher
consciousness to obtain the status of deities and are very short-lived for this
dimension. Some just fail at it completely but are well-advanced beyond your Earth
and are struck with incompatible overlaps that create what you refer to as
“Saints.” Stigmata, prophets, psychics:
all are symptoms of these situations whereas the greatest revered are in fact
some sort of failure in their original goal and their piety nothing more than a
reflection of the belief in wholeness that allowed them to proceed to higher
levels in the first place.
THE BIBLE
The Bible is an Akashic
record of all events and possibilities in your dimension. It was written
originally as a dictate not so unlike this but with another purpose. It was to
lead to Christianity as a way of balancing the dimension on a level where it
would be yet another nudge in the right direction. The original manuscript can
be deciphered to tell the past and present and futures of your particular
dimension as well as that of countless other dimensions and possibilities. It
is a changing document and can verify events much easier than it predicts. You
have started using it as a verifying tool in the past 20 years, found so
fascinating due to its confirmation of a fact that is something of a
consciousness-expanding item which, in its truth, is beyond what a mind in your
vibration can comprehend, and so the mind instinctually tries to “expand” in
order to receive the energy required to understand it. This is impossible for
you, but as you try, the mind will shed its blocks and thus absorb less-complicated
realities that can sufficiently be absorbed by your energy on the limited level
in which you now exist. So, the discovery pushes you ahead, almost blindly, in
the hope that you continue forward movement in the stream of this current
filtering process. With time, the original document has been degraded to an
extent that it does not function for its original purpose but remains a
document of its times with energy sufficient to cause positive changes in some
who for reasons of personal imbalance can absorb the information in its real
form and thus remain under the influence as though “born again.” These are
splits whose lives have been unusually imbalanced as yours which allows you to absorb
this writing. Many however, not being of sufficient imbalance, but who enter
balanced, in energy only, and continue undisturbed back into the whole whether
new or advanced, can’t sufficiently absorb the energy in their present state
and thus follow the words as written in text and cause them to operate with the
potential for imbalance and the necessity to convince others of their beliefs
acting upon them the vague origin of purifying the whole energy. You can take
from this the idea that the most dogmatic of believers are actually the least
truly affected by the words. Many times these are actually advanced energies that
are in the contradictory position of balanced energy that pushes them to the
next level but doesn’t allow them to act as a true conduit of energy due to
this balance. It is a final filtering of a complicated vibration, a final test,
so to speak, for those close to moving on but stuck with stubborn impurities
that are not easily removed. This would
be much easier except that the church itself, comprised of many people, acts
like a self-magnet and draws these energies together again in mass due to their
natural affinity for unity but reinforces these stubborn beliefs through whole energy
expressed in matter. The solution to
this is to, as many highly advanced energies do, is to retreat alone to
isolation away from magnetic influence of other energies to find the straight
path ahead through these leftover blocks—thus removing them prior to advancing
to the next level. It is about increasing your vibration to a point that you
naturally go into the next dimension like a change machine that filters coins
by size—allowing only one specific portal for a specific sized coin. However,
there are those who, like a quarter, exercise their ability to increase their
vibrations sufficiently to fit into its slot even though it is not a quarter at
all. It is simply the same size of the quarter and can trick itself into the
slot for a brief time until it is rejected later on down the road. But once they
see that dimension, they are reluctant to stay away from it and can end up
living in total isolation devoting their entire life to this pursuit, away from
other necessary interaction, and can prolong their stay in your world by years
and years. This is not balance as required but more like envy in your
world. These so-called prophets are
really no such thing as they must work very hard to relay these brief glimpses
as any prolonged traverse is impossible because their already-higher level of
vibration prohibits it. It is usually
those in the midst of earthly conflict that are true conduits.
TECHNOLOGY
Technology has
historically been the largest obstacle to civilizations advancing and has wreaked
havoc on the movement forward. Seen as a subconscious short-cut to divinity,
technology will completely distract and overwhelm people into confusing
technology with the original advancement that they came with. Take other dimensional visitors such as those
in Egypt
MATERIAL
ADDICTION AND FEAR OF DYING
The current emphasis by
humans is to fix everything with a massive rush to technologically; fight a
diseased body by attempting to wage war against your true nature there on your
dimension. What I am saying is that by the current focus on science, there is
an attempt to defend the material attachment to the physical by balancing a
body and the Earth through science, thus defending the detachment from the
whole origins of this dimension. The body and planet are diseased due to an
utter addiction to what is material, and almost amnesia as to what the true
path back to wholeness looks like. A
person dying from any number of physical ailments would be cured in a moment if
struck with their true nature and thus lifted up their energy to not even the
highest level but the level with which they came into the dimension with. Yet man has even gone to the extent that
their goal is to remain within this dimension forever, if possible, having
turned off the instinct to rise to higher levels of dimensional
vibrations. All of the focus on eating
properly and running around and around joining in health fads is a symptom of
attachments to the physical which in fact are grown from fear which only exists
in your dimension.
As the energy level you
carry drops as a result of a fear of death, then the matter which makes up your
body starts to deteriorate due to this lack thus balancing out the split by
taking those who fear death closer to death to experience that place. It is
what you call “facing fear” brought on by the natural path of balance.
CROP CIRCLES
Now, these visitors from
other dimensions aim this beam of energy that vibrates at a level beyond our
viewable world and ride it toward a mathematic tunnel that opens up here on Earth
leaving a crop circle as a landmark so that they can go back home when they
need to find the opening again. This
beam isn’t random and is extremely difficult to keep open and would be
impossible to find randomly by such visitors who lose certain intuitive
abilities once they are here. Sometimes
they become stuck and must wait for this tunnel to open up again at this exact
spot. But this isn’t the only way to mark a gate opening. This is why sometimes birds will die in mass
and fall to the streets below in mass with no explanation as they are killed by
the residual energies that are radiated by the tunnel. Also, this explains many of the aircraft that
disappear from the skies with no explanation as they either are sucked into the
tunnels or the pilots killed by the energy, and the planes crash due to these
deaths or malfunction. Other land marks
are used for travel from dimensions including large structures like pyramids, mountains,
craters, lakes, etc. The crops circles
are relatively new landmarks by a specific dimension’s travelers. You will see
it less and less due to human imitations of said markings and the tendency for
crowds and much attention when they appear. Only since air travel has this been
a problem. The line drawings of South America are also markings and gateways made by travelers
originally and then copied by humans until their use was discarded. This is the
way that the crop markings will also take.
This has been happening for long before this plane had humans as you
know them on it. You really are not what they are interested in. They appear
here and all over your plane when they have successful results of their
attempts, and Earth’s energy is stronger and unique in a limited way thus
providing, for some, a more hospitable vibration to work with.
These random portals are the
reason that you see some extinct civilizations built in the most inhospitable
environments that quickly lead to the starvation of the populations after these
crossovers are long gone. Humans have congregated around these gateways in the
past as to them these were holy sites and no thought was given to food or water
supply or resources available for survival. Since these crossovers were not
able to stay very long, their time measured in just a few years on average. When
they vanished, the civilizations continued around legends of god-like creators
who came from the skies and created their people. These loyalties were and are
stronger than their realities, and so the people eventually were starved out of
these cities which today are found abandoned as though overnight. The Mayans
history is of this nature. Your history has fantastically described their
people as vanishing overnight. This is not the case although their populations
relocated rather quickly due to the lack of resources available to them or the inhospitality
of their lands at that time to growing plants and vegetables. Fruit was
abundant to them, but as they were not close to the coasts, fish and food from
the sea was nearly nonexistent. Many of
their belongings went with them, and their histories were carried by word of
mouth in the form of legends and tales by those born far after the origin of
their populations.
OF THE
FUTURE, BLACK HOLES AND SCIENCE
So you want to know about
the future of your dimension. First, you must make the mental separation
between the planet and the dimension. The two are different as the dimension
extends far beyond the planet and influences a web of eight dimensional grid-spaces.
An atom and, further, its components are of vast energies that remain constant
in their system but are dispersed into multiple systems that create what you
see as matter. Their energies actually jump dimensions, as stated earlier,
existing in a middle ground where the crossover weakens the energy as it
creates matter. From this energy of a body, much weakened by dimension, this
energy bleeds back out in consciousness, yet again jumping another small
dimension barrier into force of the unseen thought. The thoughts combine as in
a single atom to create a powerful force in total mind consciousness of the dimension
which, like the atom, again spreads out to create the dimension and back again
until there are eight dimensions within the single vibratory dimension in which
you exist. Now imagine this same system coalescing again with energy required
to jump a hard dimension barrier to another permanent dimension with eight sub-dimensions
that spreads out sideways infinitely, and together as one, to jump yet again up
and continues doing this from each and every newly-created sideways and up-and-down
dimensions until there is a continuous system of endless dimensions created by
the thoughts of each and every atom within a single moment of this
dimension. Every law is unique to its
single dimension. The speed of light is constant, for example, to everyone
because it is born out of the collective observation of energies in one
dimension. However, it is not constant
with tiny particles that appear to communicate with each other instantaneously.
Nor does it apply to massive systems as a whole who views time differently. The
speed of light is not at all constant in totality, but just as you view it. If
a human were 144,000 miles tall then it wouldn’t make sense that such an entity
couldn’t move faster that his own height when running at full speed. The speed
of light is different to them from where they are looking from. The reason
light is such an important variable is because it exists uniquely for each
dimension as the splitting points between these levels of vibrations.
Let us return to the topic
of what you call black holes. As I told
you, they were originally used to keep balance in the universe and to act like
release valves for the energy, more accurately, matter in the dimension of your
space universe. Your suns are the main
portals for incoming energy and matter and black holes the exit portals. In
order for energy to become matter, as you know, it must cross a hard-dimension
barrier no matter which direction it is going.
The crossing happens via intense reactions on the nuclear level and must
enter at the constant light speed and leave at the same speed. This is an
intense and powerful process that happens in an original transfer--as in the
beginning of your dimension--and continues, and energy is released from burning
suns as it converts energy to the essence of dimensional matter as black holes
suck up imbalanced energy and matter, sending it back to the whole conscious
energy as consciousness and recycles it back through the portal created by the
suns. Now your scientists ask what exactly happens at these points when these
changes actually occur. There is not yet an explanation which they could
understand in their dimension’s minds which define all in terms of start and
finish.
THE BAFFLING
QUESTIONS
So, too, do your fellows
ask the questions that continue to baffle throughout your time. What was in the
beginning? What lay beyond the stars? In your frame of understanding, the
answer is simply nothing. The origins of the whole are not able to be
understood with these terms that try and define what is complete and unending. Your
people only have references as it is related to matter. You needed to have
these references to operate as matter with perspective on yourself. These
parameters are unique to your sets of dimensions but false in their application
to even your own world when taken to enclose questions within their
boundaries. Imagine explaining to a blind
man what the color yellow is? You could
not, nor does he need to or be able to understand it at all. He has not had to
recognize the color yellow for any reason and does not have the reference to
even begin to form such a mind picture. A man must first understand what a
color is and to have this basic reference; then you must have eyes. Without
sight, then he does not even know, as you do, what sight is. The same is true
for you in this world as it compares to another dimension. Your references to
live here are not in addition to your life but because of them that you exist.
For all life on your dimension these same laws of reference exist. So to try and
explain to you the laws of another dimension or the whole of existence isn’t
possible as you exist today. This is not to suggest that you lack the potential
for this knowledge. You have all of this knowledge as you exist today but have lost
the vibration energy that is required to access it due to the need to exist as
matter.
THE BAFFLING
ANSWERS
However, you do bring it
with you, but it is dispersed out to make matter and then enters the universe
before eventually being recycled back into black holes which accelerate what is
excess in the form of higher-dimensional sub-matter and accelerates it to near-light
speed as it changes in vibration until it crosses the plane into the whole
through the hole as you see it. It is believed that these holes are constant
and unstoppable objects that continue to remain open for their lifetime.
However, this is a false idea as black holes continuously turn on and off in
active and dormant phases depending on the balance of the total energy in your
dimension. Now if you step back to look at
a galaxy such as your own, you will find these holes opening and closing in
phases thus dragging the Earth in a cycle that starts out from your sun on a
defined path where it will eventually be sped up in vibration as it slowly
circles the hole and eventually passes the energy, or consciousness, into the
whole via the black hole in the center of your own galaxy. Before this happens, the galaxy or dimension
will experience a review period as it lifts to a higher plane of awareness the
closer it gets to its end and then vanish into the crossover as pure
consciousness. This process happens through what you see as your universe on
infinite levels seen and unseen to you due to unique references of observation
by these other energies existing outside of what is your concept of space and
time.
The dark matter that you
so desperately try to define within your parameters of reference is the
existence in the other eight dimensions that are within your hard dimension
barriers but exist at sub-dimension levels. It is there but because of its
unique frames of reference; you can’t see it as you would like but also can’t
deny its existence. It is matter and energy that has to be looked upon with
similar eyes to actually “see” it like matter in your own unique dimension that
exists when you look within familiar references. But to you it is simply no more than the
color yellow is to a blind man.
ENLIGHTENMENT
AND EMOTION
You spend an inordinate
amount of time and energy following teachers who have formed a plan for what
you call enlightenment but would better be called filtering in its reality.
Instructions are contrary to the purpose and do nothing for the real goal of
understanding. You cannot force a person to express real emotion which, by the
way, is the only state in which true realization and consciousness awareness
happens. Try to force a person to love another: impossible. Try and force hate
or despair: you cannot. A split will, through their awareness, experience these
states of emotion, and when they do, will be changed fundamentally. Others can be influences on these moments but
not the arbiters of it. These realizations happen alone within the split
energy. The moment split energy turns to another for instruction on so-called
enlightenment, then that split has anchored itself in the material existence of
this dimension and turned away from the inherent knowledge of the whole
consciousness and placed a singular energy higher than the collective whole.
FOLLOWING
YOUR OWN PATH
Now I must say that others
in your dimension can receive information from each other that can influence
consciousness, but it is more like giving food to a hungry man instead of
teaching him a new method of chewing in the hopes that this will quell his
hunger. The food is for him to eat how he wishes. He can gorge and eat it at
once, or he can divide the food in order to stave off hunger for longer
periods. If given an ear of corn, can he not eat half and dry the other half in
order to grow many new stalks for his future and turn the one ear of corn into
the food for thousands and thus influence the well-being of an entire
population? Yes, he can do with the corn what he wishes and it will influence
many in different ways. However, if you try and teach a man how to make bread
from the corn before he realizes how to grow it, then you end up with the
tiniest loaf of bread because he has followed your path.
THE REASON
FOR BEING
This is the simple
difference between forced knowledge and true information. The mind wants to
remember its true origin and, via truth, it will head in that direction, but
surrounded by fallacy and tales created by man, he will almost certainly get
lost on a side road that will take him to numerous dead ends. Why do so many of
your people end up at the end of life feeling regrets and saying “if I could do
it over.” This is because many follow what they feel is the least path of resistance
or the most accepted way of life deemed by society as allowable. Many never
follow their wants and the pull of their inner voices in fear of existing as an
individual. Existing as an individual is the whole reason you are where you are
right now in your dimension! You must exist as an individual or you wouldn’t
have experienced splitting in the first place. To merely follow the masses is
to deny any opportunity to fulfill your purpose. However, you constantly look
outward for direction, for heroes, for leaders, for kings, for God’s
messengers, for love, for guidance, for information. And still you feel that sometime in life you
wished you had followed your intuition more often. This is because the answers
you seek are only found within yourself. This is why your entire dimension with
grand planets and evolution and balance and black holes exists. It exists for
one purpose only, and that is for the individual to find within itself the path
back to the whole, and it can only be found through true awareness expressed by
moments of real mind emotion born out of self contemplation in the face of
endless obstacles for the brief moment you experience as your life.
ALL THINGS
CREATED EQUAL
There is no difference in
separate splits of energy. They are all but a piece of a perfect entire whole
and so to place others on pedestals is to crush a large rock and randomly pick
up a resulting pebble to crown king.
Further, then you are so convinced of the greatness of this random rock
that you gather all of the other pieces to follow the kings teachings on how to
become a whole rock again as though he could do it without every other little
pebble or speck of dust. It will never be a whole rock again without each tiny
part coming together in the only truth there is. They are only a rock when they
all agree on the idea that by coming to the realization of a whole from their
perspective can they ever create the original rock. Without a speck of dust, it
is still not the rock no matter how loudly the king expounds on his role as the
necessary component. All parts are equal.
A PURE PATH
No one can ask about the
words that you are reading right now. Isn’t this instruction? No, it is simply
information to digest and do with what you will. Compare it to tossing a ball
in front of your dog. You merely throw the ball without any indication to the
dog of what you want him to do. You may have hopes as to his reaction or you
may not care either way. The point is that the dog is free to do many things.
He can follow the instinct to chase the ball. He can ignore it and go to sleep.
He can look at you with suspicion and decide in fear to not chase it. He can
use his prior experiences with ball chasing to dictate his reaction. He can
fetch the ball in order to participate with you and interact. He can bring it
back to you and then, as you say, “The ball is in your court.” You are now the
dog with the freedom to do various actions in response. This is interaction
based on information while, all the while, maintaining individuality through
hope, anticipation, and suggestion, but only if you beat the dog into fetching
do you cross the line of forcing another to follow your instruction on what you
deem is interaction and life. You will
have then created importance based on fear, and thus ended any real freedom of
thought, or any change in either of you based on following a pure path based on
nurturing direction and change based on mutual equality and thus effecting
fundamental change through emotions that are born out of respect of another’s
equality.
RESTORING
THE BALANCE
It requires a massive
effort of swimming against the current for a society, in your case an entire
planet, to fight towards a place of rulers and wealthy and envy and greed, a
place where all natural laws are overcome in order to create an environment
governed by these false fear-incited characteristics. Your dimension has had to
band together in your world in order to affect a society where these rules are
accepted as the correct inclinations of man and to watch as they tear the
dimension apart from where it naturally exists.
Here is what I indicate as imbalance and why your world is starting to
react in ways to restore the balance it naturally requires to exist in your
dimension. Global warming, pollution, stripping, is all merely the end result
of consciousness that is now focused on as the problem. You can not affect
change until the consciousness achieves balance, and then the balance is
corrected. When man kills another with a gun, do you throw the bullet in jail?
Of course not. To try and fix the dimension out of fear, but never changing the
awareness or consciousness, will never work. You cannot fool the vibration of
balance no matter how hard you try. It won’t work.
DEPRESSION
Depression is a self-fulfilling
prophecy. People don’t miraculously become errantly depressed. It is not the
result of some new conditions surrounding life that create undue stress in
reaction to situations or pressures.
Everything is relative. It is relative to a person’s reality regardless
of how it may compare to the one looking upon said conditions thinking that
they are so much less in intensity to theirs. Life, in of itself is relative.
Relativity, like that of time and space, is the seed of perspective.
Emotions
are not optional in the path of existence in your dimension. They are the true
substance on higher levels. HOWEVER,
TODAY IN YOUR TIME, PEOPLE ARE RELUCTANT TO EXPRESS EMOTION ON A VARIETY OF
LEVELS, AND EVEN THOSE WHO ARE KNOWN FOR IT REALLY HAVE REHEARSED A MUCH MORE
PALATABLE VERSION THAN THEY DOLE OUT TO OTHERS TO SOUND CONVINCING BEHIND A
FALSE CURTAIN. You use the word love to
justify fear and insecurity, hoping it is heard as a believable excuse for what
you feel. Hate masks envy and shame and the lack of acknowledging the same as
conclusion. You don’t even have to try anymore as these emotions have been redefined
for you for generations and have changed the emotional language completely
where truth lies as a separate myth whose only gifts have been the similarity
off spelling.
Depression
is a result of the lack of ability or path for the split to express emotion as
something natural but with fear of being defective or having it put them in a
box of a mental misfit. You fear feeling
sad or unsettled and assume that this is an errant condition requiring fixing
by society and, even more familiar, a medicine given to you to stave off
emotion. These medications used to combat emotions in your dimension have
stopped many in their tracks thus wiping out such emotions and therefore
labeling them cured. The lack of interaction with your own self is not
equivalent to satisfaction but only the closing of the emotional eyes to the
required emotions that will guide you to higher levels of consciousness instead
of a lead-weighted sideways trudge.
These are not limited to feeling low but to anxiety and pain and various
physical expressions of the mind.
MIND--BODY
CONNECTION
So
you ask why you in your land have such an increase in various conditions that
were unfamiliar in prior times. Countries, as you refer to lands, can be graded
in their onset of such higher levels of physical ailments as the reliance for
such medicine rises. This is to say that the expression of emotions by the body
increase as these expressions by the mind is controlled. When a medicine
prevents a person from feeling anxious, this emotion is simply filed inwardly
by a drugged mind where it is still very real and intense. It surely doesn’t go
away but works its way out through an expression of an ill body. You will deal with it one way or another, and
this law applies to various situations back and forth between the mind and
body.
When
a person has major surgery, that is a patch, so to say, for a condition that is
necessary for the vibration growth of a split. Then what you see is that the
patient very often goes through a visible mental condition labeled depression
which again is silenced by medicine until you are left with the living dead
walking around in emotional blind spots for eternity. This is not to say that medicine is all counter-productive.
There are situations that are addressed for the well-being of the whole, and in
this motivation is a good thing by the perpetrators. Nothing is black and white, however, and a
definite explanation is not in existence. But, the man who has a liver
transplant, rather that address his addictions to wine or moving toward
understanding this condition as it exists as a condition or necessity, has just
wasted years that could have been spent reaching for the skies. There is no way
to trick the whole, and you will deal with these imperfections before being
returned in full to the whole of consciousness.
What
happened to split energies before these medical discoveries? Was suicide more
prevalent then? No. They were forced to work through these emotions and address
the underlying imperfections before going forward with the steady flow.
This
is another symptom of the split energies, via technology, to be unnaturally
connected and dependent on technological advance in your time. To silence the
expression of true nature does not mean that it has been addressed. It is
simply taken from your material view where it sits silently to you but,
nonetheless, moving out in other forms that cannot so easily be silenced. An example is the depressed or unstable, by
your standards, being medicated only to have a heart attack later. The converse
is also true. Man was born out of a perfect consciousness sprung forth from a
perfect balance of energy and timing in order to claim this dimension where you
now exist. The Earth has an inert balance that corrects itself with a
consciousness that is everything in a whole consciousness. Do you really
believe that you can fool it with a pill or destroy it by driving a car too often?
This self importance is a fear-instilled perspective brought on by technological
answers to mind-based questions.
So
what should you do? Well, the answers are not mine to give--simply the
information for you to do with what you will. It goes back to connecting with
the whole consciousness in order to know the true goals and the true launching
ports from which to advance your energy towards the whole. In essence,
convincing a rich man to give all of his money to the poor can only be done
when the rich man knows the true rewards of your dimension and with complete
knowing sees this act as worth more than all of his gold in the path of his
advance. To force him to do so without his complete agreement does nothing for
him but possibly aligning him with addressing his fear as it pertains to
coveting. There is a universal truth that cannot be negotiated, cloaked or
fooled. The truth simply is and will always be. The obvious secret here is that
you are born from this truth and carry the knowledge with you now but have
chosen to forfeit the ability to connect with it, thus leaving you mired in a
war between truth and non-truth that is waged completely within your body’s vibration
border.
You
have tried to explain this writing to yourself in many ways that would label it
a condition of an ill mind but cannot. Why? Because you never would have been
able to even receive this had you continued to medicate your emotional self in
an attempt to silence these open portals of emotion. So in a sense there is
your personal self-fulfilling prophecy. You are able to sit and receive because
you are sitting and receiving.
Thursday, March 22nd, 2007
RELATIONSHIPS
AND MARRIAGE
You
find yourself going through the fears around attachment to others in your life.
Life doesn’t guarantee soul mates in your dimension. Soul mates are a creation
of man in the sense that they are a permanent physical answer to all of your
feelings of being incomplete. This is a relatively new idea in your time which
has a direct connection to your idea of marriages.
Remember that natural laws
are the foundation for your dimension expressed as matter and energy splits. These energies tend to want to pare back up
to the whole but time has tempted you with short cuts to these goals. This is
where the idea of permanent mates as governed by the laws of marriage comes
from. What is marriage to your time? Marriage is a series of promises to each
other to predict the unknown to insecure and self-doubting energies. Humans are not meant to be monogamous, and
the reason you exist is because the strongest of males found the most numbers
of compatible females to create generations of the same that continued the
cycle. This is nature and instinct.
Marriage is a legal solution to a fear of permanent individuality that on
its surface looks that it is the answer. We find mates who emotionally have
what we lack in various levels. The meek seek the strong and the shy the
verbose. These initial attractions make man feel like he has found his place in
a puzzle and settles in for the rest of their lives. But nothing is forever and
fear of losing such an intoxicating influence in and of itself will increase
the attachment to such a height that the pairing is systematically destroyed
preemptively in many cases due to confirmation of such fears brought on by
natural violations of these man-written vows.
In
many relationships and marriages you must only look to the animal world, which
humans are definitely a part of, to see what nature has instilled in your
species as a part of the overall balance to insure continuation. Take chimps, for example, and you find that fathers
have a very limited role after the procreative act in the rearing of the baby.
Also, the father that is the strongest of the males will insure a strong
continuation of the line by impregnating numerous females without the other
females seeking a barrister. The mothers are not merely objects either as the
order of the continuation of the line falls into their hands. They gravitate
towards the strong males also—the ones who have characteristics that they
themselves do not have--to “complete” the balance of the offspring. They don’t much care whether or not such a
mate has a wandering eye or how much time he spends at home so long as he takes
his job of siring seriously. Yes, jealousy erupts and pairings do continue in a
societal way, but not out of fear being the number one issue to solve, but that
of strong generic procreation.
THE MYTH OF
MONOGAMY
Love is something
different from physical attraction and is more about the individual, where
lust, as it is sometimes called, is about the union and the harmony. Men and
women naturally go towards others that they can harmonize with
vibrationally. Perfect unions for
procreation, however, do not lead to successful monogamous unions because that
is a modern idea created by man to insure that his bloodline would continue. In
effect, marriage enslaved women to men who didn’t want to be uncertain about
who carried their offspring. In nature
there are very, very few monogamous species outside of humans, and even humans
only claim they are monogamous. It is
not normal for men and women to be exclusively together especially if there is
no chance for harmony together. In the animal kingdom you must look at the most
successful species in order to understand that the male and females pair up to
produce and that is it. They do not have the need to quench insecurity by
promising words in front of a holy man. Female chimps do not try and force
their mates to be sensitive child-rearing chimps or to stay with them forever
after they are impregnated. In fact, they do not even really want them around
once they are conceived and turn to the other women of the group to interact
with. When offspring are born, females are fiercely defensive of them, and this
will include the fathers many times. You
have taken natural laws, and in order to satisfy unbalanced energies, have
turned them on their sides.
THE PRIZED
MALE ROLE
Males
have the role of protection, fathering offspring and establishing territory.
Females take care of the offspring as well as attention to the minutiae of
their society. Females have an integral
role that is every bit as important as that of the male, and neither is deemed
unimportant in the entirety.
Humans
in the last few centuries have been slowly moving towards a world society in
which the male role, due to strength in the physical, has been deemed the
pinnacle for everyone and even a judge of a society’s civilized progress. The
importance of the role of a mother has been deemed, in general, to be lower in
importance than that of males whereas all of society reacts similarly to race
to the male role thus leaving the child without the required attention from the
mothers as they try and climb this self- imposed ladder.
Women
working is one of those strange topics that is becoming untouchable in your
dimension as a way to give it a baseless credibility with society. Race
differences and physical abnormalities also fall into this category. This not
only leaves society with females feeling powerless and victimized as they
discover no elation as they climb the ladder mentioned but also leaves males
feeling stripped of their role and its importance. Anything that acts as a
roadblock to such arguments is labeled chauvinistic, racist or mean. However,
the important result is that you are left with a world where, having been
stripped of the natural roles, the sexes no longer can effectively exist
together due to a shattered mold rebuilt with tape and glue.
Don’t
assume that any one of these examples is totally responsible for this
dysfunction in a society as it cannot be solved with just the realization of
one. It is a correction that, if preempted before such natural balances occur
as in the past, it would be born out of a strong shift in consciousness that
would find its power through several generations of movement in the corrective
direction. In a society where a perceived imbalance is interpreted as males
holding on to the top via force and mistreatment, half the population will spend
their whole lives trying to snatch such power from each other to find the
golden chalice which actually isn’t there when they open this proverbial door
at the top. Is it an accident that men have thrived in their given roles? It is
due to perfect balance in the physical.
ETERNAL
POWER STRUGGLE
As
a result of this trend which began with marriages in your past, man and woman
are now locked in an eternal power struggle that starts with virtually all
pairings from the moment they meet. These power struggles grow a stranglehold
on them infecting every aspect of their roles in this coupling. When you diminish the role of a partner by
minimizing the males work or the females caring for a child, you many times
encounter violent reactions and don’t understand the venom behind them. To make
this clearer, you need to know that in doing so you are really saying to them
that the perfect order and balance that exists here, and has forever in the
consciousness of the whole, is wrong and that you know better. You will be
forever fighting an uphill battle against perfect order of the dimension.
INCREASE IN
VIOLENT CRIMES
Increase
in violent crimes by males is, in large part, due to this imbalance in
society. Pushed further into the recess
of their formal selves, men will act out their true nature in a way that
society deems criminal, as involuntary expression of balance. Many crimes can
easily be reduced to invasion of territory, need to procreate, coveting caused
by fear for survival and the demolishing of artificial boundaries of the body
by the use of wine and drugs. You deem crimes offenses against morality, but
what society deems moral is at best set in mud. It changes with each year and
has but errant ideals behind it.
If
you want a puppy to stop biting, do you remove his teeth as soon as one appears? No. Also,
you do not cleanse energy by forcing it onto one path. The puppy must be set
straight by his mother when she tires of his behavior. She will snap back at
the puppy, and quickly he learns. If not, he will end up snapping at a
dangerous opponent one day, when he wanders off, who will not be as gentle as
the mother and possibly injure or kill the adult dog. No permanent cleansing of
these counterproductive behaviors will have taken place. This is the answer to
the question of why. Why does God, the world, the consciousness then let man
veer off so sharply without corrections? It is necessary for a world that
evolves in body to be allowed to evolve in mind. Again, it goes to balance and
as with a puppy, this evolution so required for a balance in the world starts
with the first lessons learned from the mother.
MOTHER AND
CHILD
Mothers no longer shine
proud for their duties as they surrender to a material world which will never
compare with instinct. The true vibrations from a mother to a child are the
strongest force in your land. Without mothers, the dimension would never exist
because when a split occurs, it can only exist as possibility and thus could
not simply exist as a determined man without variables needed to find a perfect
balance for that split. A child, although
an equal part of a whole, is like the energy after the bang that had to cool
down to settle into matter and then join to make organisms etc. Children serve
the same purpose and must go through periods of settling down energies into a
split that can exist. They did in fact
enter the world from a portal via nuclear reactions within a sun and appeared
as physical matter. Sometimes a child split simply can’t reach the right
balance or has come in with such an imbalance that it abandons the body and
returns back to the whole so it doesn’t disturb the balance unnecessarily.
These are miscarriages and still births and early-infant deaths. The truth is
that splits enter the cells of a mother’s womb the second it is fertilized.
Fertilization is two vibrations harmonizing with each other to allow the split
to enter what existed prior as a vibration in static state. Once harmony is
created then the split can enter, but two people do not always create harmony
together that will allow the energy in. These people will have difficulty
procreating until they reach an individual balance with each other. Usually,
though, you can feel harmony with another in the form of intense physical
attraction with the opposite sex.
THE ABSENT
MOTHER
Why does society feel
broken for you now? Why are women dying younger each year? Why are they ashamed
to be devoted mothers and feel inferior if they do not have a foot in the
material world--fears of your dimension? To be a mother is the most important
of jobs, but today you consider it less than a clerk’s position. Is it any
wonder that children are imbalanced and have no direction? Only a mother can
really raise a child because their harmonies are the same. They stay close
together to keep the hum at that pitch as it settles into individuality after a
few years. When the child is with strangers, the harmony short circuits and
instead of feeling like it belongs, it feels lost and starts to form defensive
postures because it doesn’t feel protected. This leads to children growing up
violent at younger ages due to this lack of a mother. The father, sadly, isn’t
all that important at this stage, or at least not any more important than any
other influence in the child’s life. Adoptive parents and a child can reach a
certain level of harmony after a while but never like a natural mother and
their child.
A child needs that “hum”
or harmonic vibration as its guide as it settles into the world of matter.
Problems of imbalance start when the mother is absent. Although you think that
women working are a giant step ahead, it is really a huge leap backwards as
mothering is, in reality, the most important duty there is. It is more
important than president, king, or pope but has been reduced through the fear
of man to nothing more than a requirement.
ABORTION
Abortion is a terrible
misunderstanding of life and the reason for your existence. It isn’t good or
bad or right or wrong: there is no such thing. However, it is the extreme
opposite of a consciousness of selflessness and that for the benefit of the
whole energy. In a sense, it is predicting the unpredictable and through an
extreme action trying to shape your future before ever taking a first small
step. It is like standing frozen in your fears for eternity in the face of the
harmonic vibration that is inside your split already and thus must be denied
vehemently by you in order to justify removing it. Those who oppose abortion
instinctually know that it works against the filtering of energy on your
dimension, and in spite of their tactics, should be listened to for insight.
The issue of abortion is an extreme state of mind in your dimension which was
created solely for the reproduction of matter and life and the continuous
harmony of the energy of the whole. When
the imbalance hits critical mass, society will begin a slow return to an
emphasis on the child and mother bond that shapes a generation in the forward
direction. However, I want to add that religion as a whole, even though it
promotes the absence of abortions, is on the whole useless in its present
forms.
A body is merely a vehicle
for you to occupy and to provide energy with a perfect stage and cast from
which to experience the dimension and move through that experience ahead toward
another higher dimension and eventually to the whole. That is the simplest of
reasons. A woman can covet hundreds of orphans and not affect the whole energy
even a fraction as much had she nurtured a single child of her own.
HOMOSEXUALITY
Homosexuality
is neither required or a giant societal problem. It has been around since the
beginning but is, in its true form, a human condition born out of energies
split solely as female for many incarnations and thus must reenter eventually
identifying as male in order to achieve balance. This transition doesn’t always
go smoothly, and the same happens with repeated male incarnations that then
incarnate as females.
If
you look closely at homosexuality, you will see that, in essence, what a split
is doing is searching for male-like energy in order to gain balance from the
other. You see this behavior even of young homosexuals who fall for male
friends or relatives in search of the balance they inherently desire. As they
grow and these advances refused by normal men, they are often forced into
searching for male ENERGY IN THEIR OWN CLOSED SOCIETY OF OTHER HOMOSEXUALS. They end up with trying to feed off of each
other to find the nonexistent supply of true male energy of the physical. This
leads to an imbalance of these societies marked by heightened instability in general
and lack of balance. There is no moral component to it, simply a lack of balance. The only way for these splits to find balance
is from a world where these opportunities, by the very nature of their
incarnations, are not interested in them as they are moving in their own unique
direction seeking to find balance. Homosexuals move about in a frenzied search
to find that energy from new partners over and over as they come up short in
their quest.
Is
this to say that there is no balance for such splits available? The answer is
the opposite. There is always the opportunity for balance, or you wouldn’t
exist. The balance is when homosexuals are forced or choose to stop looking to
another for balance, as is true for all, and to, through experiencing your
dimension, move toward the idea of a whole consciousness and find the balance
of matter as they move ahead to that goal. Homosexuals are no more caught in
endless distractions than every other society in your dimension.
However,
there will be natural attempts to break any errant cycle of a society in order
to nudge them onto the right path. So if you can view this with an opened mind,
you can see diseases such as AIDS not as a punishment but as a push out of a
fruitless search and into a fruitful one that has the added velocity to steer some
towards the true nature expressed in compassion and forgiveness of their
fellows afflicted. This is a very simple explanation of that which is a more
multifaceted and complicated area of disease and suffering as it is interpreted
by you and as it pertains to various groups of people.
Disease
has a variety of purpose in your dimension and serves a real purpose as to
balance. Have you ever heard a person say that having a serious ailment gave
them an awakening? Or that it gave them a renewed awareness about what is
important? This is the result of balance being found by those nudged onto the
path by disease. Consequently, there are formidable barriers created over time
by society that are balanced through disease where you, as with homosexuals,
express a new-found appreciation for the compassion and nurturing that they possess
in abundance but really manifesting as a result of a disease that pushed them
in that direction. It is only through the looking glass of death as a
punishment does it take on sinister implications. To some it is time to return
to the whole, for others it is multifaceted, and still for others it is an
accelerated end to this incarnation that succumbs to obstacles that for
whatever reason have created an environment that most probably will not be overcome
currently. These are just a few of the purposes that illness serves. For most, illness is a grand opportunity to
grow and follow a lighted path on the way to the ultimate goal of advancing off
of your plane higher into grander-still dimensions.
FAMILIES AND
MUSHROOMS
Families from past split
times tend to reenter together when they leave prior times very close--or with
unfinished issues. This isn’t a useless thing to do, as it all lends itself to
the purification of consciousness of the whole, but then they usually go apart
and pair up with unfamiliar splits to form families and thus engage with new
forms of consciousness thus, together, creating vehicles for new energy to come
through. Genetics plays a role only as it pertains to matter, and matter does
carry with it characteristics of its parent parts. Laws of nature are very real
and needed to exist so that the world could form life that instinctually moved
toward developing all forms of life on its own. These instincts are very strong
as matter must act independently--as a car, if you will--that is driven by energy
but survives via its own consciousness. Your energy certainly influences
matter, as we have discussed, but there is a natural tendency of matter to
survive any way it can. You may wonder why matter, or man, wasn’t just created
as we are now in order to not waste precious years forming from simple
organisms. This is again judged from your point of reference where you deem
yourself the ultimate goal. Everything that has ever existed in your dimension
is equally important and has served the most important of purposes from the
very beginning. You had to experience the most basic of moments after this
dimension was created in order to even know how to experience matter. Every
cell in your body is brilliant and knows everything in the universe. Each tiny
bug also is a genius by your standards. If you look around you, there is a
massive symphony of perfection operating to keep this dimension running in
order for your split energy to exist and function and learn for the benefit of
every single atom in the universe and beyond.
Reality is that you are no smarter and no greater than a common
mushroom. It grows and reproduces just as you do. It knows which environments
are friendly, develops defenses to survive and has many different splits of its
own. A mushroom is a fantastic mathematic wonder on every level, and if you
could unlock its secrets today, you would know wonders greater than any of
man’s inventions to date.
But still, we do have instinct
for survival, and you have fought to label and change these instincts to suit
what is only an attempt to avoid the raising of your vibration. Have you ever
felt a nagging memory that you couldn’t just put a finger on? A feeling from
long ago without face of body but pure feeling of thought? These are moments of
remembering that try to come through, but many times you resist them and call
them unwanted conditions and subdue them with medicine. You have convinced yourselves that you should
never feel uneasy or anxious, and if you do, then you are defective. The
dimension is all here for you to experience the parts of the whole and to
freely move toward the next levels. You
must always know that this dimension is about knowing perspective. It is to
know that you are by knowing a here and there. You know happy from sad and
bravery from fear. You know hate from love and joy from grief. When you
eliminate any one of these things, then the other you will not know. A person
who is prevented from expressing hate will not ever accept love or express it.
Wearing a chemical smile will always be no more than a mask.. Feeling is not a
defect.
THE STUBBORN
TWINS
So you and your twin
energy want to know about your family that has come here with you and returned back
in this life. I will visit this briefly as there is much that you are not able
to understand. Your grandmother was a soul who was, by comparison, an advanced
energy who had found the true direction in this life and found herself quickly
moved forward to a place that was difficult for her to exist in. For her, this
was because she had given up a significant part of her own energy to bring you
and the twin into this world with your refusal to split. The only way for you
to stay here and exist with this imbalance, created by the refusal to fully
split, was for her, as a mother no less, to give her energy to you to balance
you out as she knew that you would be here to be a conduit in your future. Now, by making this sacrifice, she launched
herself ahead in a world that wasn’t hospitable to this balance, brought on so
quickly by such a bold sacrifice, and she weakened from that point on until her
body gave out. You see the sudden influx of energy and vibration rise in the
period of stigmata she experienced toward the end of her life. She was
originally the one who agreed to be the receiver of this information, but the
time wasn’t right for it then and so it passed to you. She was really too
balanced for this task and instinctually knew that she could not do it.
Your grandmother had not
had other incarnations with you as family before this one. In fact, she had
been a leper prior to this life and had died what was a critical death. In that
life she had volunteered to take care of a sick colony of people and became
sick herself. This energy, as intense as it was, followed her into this life
where the imbalance it originally brought with it was quickly balanced enough
to allow her to assimilate, but she could never let go of the need to take on
the burden of many others and physically she died young.
Why were you so close to
her??? Because of the aforementioned maternal harmonic vibrations that remained
so fine-tuned from her to your mother, who is actually more a twin to you, and
thus you both shared that same need to continue to feel that harmony until her
death. In many ways, it infused what is, and has been for many reasons, an
imbalanced system with balance in order for survival. After she died, you will
remember that your twin energies veered off uncharacteristically in many odd
directions due to the sudden lack of this harmony which was not replaceable
from mother to son, as it usually is, because you are not so much mother and
son as stubborn twins. In fact, you are the only two in the family with a history
of past incarnations, all past incarnations, amongst a group who do share a
past history with the exception of the two of you. Your grandmother was a
volunteer to bring you into this dimension as an unbalanced conduit due to her
heightened energy, which naturally led to other children, but her main purpose
was to balance out the imbalance required to receive sudden influx of balanced
energy. The rest of your family has a varied and long history that doesn’t
really include you, and I therefore will not relate the reasons for their early
passing and experience as they have virtually nothing to do with you two. That
is all I am going to relate on this topic of past incarnations for now.
OUR UNIQUE
AND TEMPORARY WORLD
As I have told you, your
dimension is unique and has developed in ways that were possible and at the
same time unexpected. It is the wonder of your world put forth as the ultimate
filter of what was only known when it finally was. However, it is temporary and
will one day be replaced by another whose existence will be unique in its own
and the reality of which will only be known when you experience it. Mothers,
fathers, children, rocks, and wealth only exist here in your dimension.
Language and emotions will be gone forever as well. You only understand your
world because you are experiencing it at the present. When you leave the
material body, you don’t wake up in another dimension as the person you are now
but as an energy who has occupied many forms. You don’t even wake up at the
same split of energy, but the entirety of energy with possible consciousness
that will be split differently in times ahead. You are not an individual but
the whole. When you help a despised man, you are helping yourself. When you
save a tiny beetle, you are saving yourself. If you want to be the greatest you
can be, then you give up everything you have for the benefit of everything else
without fear of such separation. But the world of matter only allows you to
experience and learn via matter interaction through actions.
THE
ACCOUNTING
When this incarnation ends
for you, and you sit in review before reentering the whole, you will see your
life from pure perspective and many will be shocked when confronted with their
choices that will seem so obvious to you. Property, wealth, beauty and such
qualities of a material world will be realized as worthless insomuch as they
exist, and the real value will be seen in how your reactions shaped your path
toward the whole. A wealthy man will feel that he no more than sat in fear in a
thickly-walled cave guarding a pile of rocks from his fellow. Had he given these rocks freely back to Earth
for its completeness and the experience of all other energies, he would have,
in that moment of review, experienced riches beyond what is imaginable in your
dimension.
(February
27, 2009 – 10 days following death of my dog Yuki who I had to have put down
due to advanced cancer. Yuki appeared to my friend, Tammy, while I was sleeping
on the sofa in my living room. Tammy assumed it was my other dog, Yahtsi (Yuki’s
neice), who was at my mother’s house. I
had been very depressed since Yuki’s passing. I had stayed with Bukki and held
her as she took her last breath looking up to me.)
YUKI
Was it wisdom or simply rain that day
when your little one came back to you?
You never doubted that it happened, as you found yourself perfectly and
beautifully balanced at that moment. It is the only way to see that place—to be
there, vibrations exact and born out of a real moment when all selfish things
are truly gone. In the still of the night you could feel it--what it means to
step aside in lieu of another that you so deeply loved. Humans rarely reach for those times, having
long ago forgotten them possible, but when it happens, your whole being is
shocked into and out of a place that you lived permanently in other lives. You
felt sore and tired and beautifully and perfectly sad for a loss that you
suffer so she didn’t.
How does a person get to the place where
everything is balanced and time has no place and the mind sees everything
forever? Why do so few get there? It’s
because--as you have rediscovered—it’s hard. It is the hardest thing for a
human to do, but it is exactly why you are here. You must walk through every
fear and every unknown—through self images and lack of respect. You must feel
every high and every low and know them for their futility and for their glory,
but you and only you must know them, and it isn’t found or confronted through
talk or in numbers--but only in the moments when no one is looking at you.
You still cry for her, your little
beautiful girl—the loss ripped out the place where love lives for you, and now
you walk around in grief almost always because it’s the only thing holding back
the tears. You can pretend to everyone else, but it’s there. You hurt inside
because you’re empty, and only when she came to you did it ever feel okay. You
long for that moment like a drug because in your helping her to cross you found
perfection, and then it escaped, and you hurt.
She was a soul who knew you a long
time—a guardian come down to spare your life and see you to this place. They
all were. You were not here to protect them but the opposite—they were here to
watch over you. They are angels, your angels, manifested here to protect in a
form they struggle to keep as this is not where they are made to reside. They
sicken quickly for that reason and go quickly. The Shar-Pei are special ones.
Not really dogs at all but incarnations of deities all marked by the purple
tongues throughout your history. The
final two are here simply to be a connection to the others to use if needed but
are very young entities in their first few incarnations before the human
stages.
Would it surprise you to know that she
went against all balance when she came back as she was deep into grief like
you, only even more unfamiliar with human emotions like you know them. She was
a very different sort, as you knew, because she had never been on your plane
before this time. But when she passed, she felt it sharply and with what you
might call worry she went back and stayed with you and sat with you when you
slept, and you could smell her in the room and once heard her crying also. She still is sad even over here, sad to be
gone and sad in your grief. This wasn’t
expected as usually
this sort of crossover doesn’t occur readily.
